Refinement.

James 1:2-4

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Right now I am physically exhausted, fatigued, and I have a difficult time breathing.
Right now emotionally, I'm all over the place. There's some issues that I don't want to be in the middle of.
Right now spiritually I just want desperately for Abba to fill this whole in my heart.
Right now mentally I just want these dumb thoughts to stop running around in my brain.

Despite these circumstances, I still have so much to be thankful for. In fact, I should be thankful that I'm going through these things because that means I'm being refined and Daddy is doing so much more within in me that I can't even see or comprehend.

There's no one that I would rather live for... I will follow Jesus, and by His grace..He will sustain me until the very end.