I'm weak, but He's strong.

In 2 Corinthians 12:9 it says "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong". This passage encompasses my experience throughout the whole CSP Hometown Bakersfield trip. Prior to coming to coming on the CSP trip, during my winter break, I encountered some of the heaviest warfare I've ever experienced as a Christian. Everything thing from doubt, to fear, to insecurity, had seemingly crept back up in my life, which were things I really struggled with before I seriously gave my life to Christ 2 and a half years ago. Feelings that felt foreign to me, suddenly plagued my thoughts and emotions constantly. However, despite the state of my spiritual walk, God gave me the strength to persevere. Not only did He encourage me greatly through my brothers and sisters in Christ and through reading Scripture, but He even used my greatly for His kingdom even when I felt so weak. Through the power of the Holy Spirit, I was able to lead two young girls to Christ this week. I was so astonished that even in the state of my weakness, God used my story to lead Savanna Garcia from Shafter High and Beatriz Quintero from Bakersfield High to Him. The experience was so touching; I asked them if a relationship with Christ was something they desired to have in their life, they just looked so ready. I remember just feeling so joyful when they nodded to receive Him and when we prayed the sinner's prayer together, it just made me so joyful. I'm so awestruck at the fact that not only God uses us in spite of our weakness, but I think the crazier thing is that, broken and weak people are exactly the ones God calls and uses for His glory. The reality is, that we are all just broken people who've found Truth and strength through Him, and I'm so glad that all it takes is for us to accept and commit our lives to Him, and He fills in the blanks for everything else!!! Although, I'm still enduring struggle right now, I know it is for the greater purpose for His kingdom, as He continues to mold me into His likeness and make Him the only thing I boast about. I still have a long way to go, and much more to learn and experience through Him, but my prayer is that my life can encompass this song lyric one day, because in the end it is He who deserves all the glory: "I will not boast in anything: no gifts, no power, no wisdom. But I will boast in Jesus Christ; his death and resurrection."

Grace Amazing.

I just don't understand.
The magnitude of it is so great.
That Almighty God? My Creator? My Savior? loves me radically? He wants to satisfy my deepest desires?
Sounds crazy huh? I haven't seen this man, I've only heard stories about Him. I only hear about Him when people preach about HIm from this book called the Bible.
He wants me to long, to love, and to completely satisfied by the One who I haven't met yet.
You know what the crazier thing I've experienced how that FEELS.


1 Peter 1:8
"Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy." Sounds like wtheck right? but yeah WTHECK that's how crazy this IS!

Man, it sounds crazy right? or just like it doesn't make sense right? yeah sometimes it even confuses me. That a God loves me so much? That He has all these answer for His people in this thing called the Holy Bible. What's even more ridic is that people have actually found proof to biblical stories too. And what's crazier is that I've seen lives transformed, because of hearing this TRUTH?

So guys. If this is true...shouldn't it change our lives? shouldn't we give ALL of our beings because we KNOW the POWER of the gospel. yet I often fail ...I doubt. I hurt HIm. I question Him. I sin. I complain. I wander. I want to please PEOPLE. I'm arrogant.

yet He still loves me. yet He still shows grace and provides me with everything and more. that's some GRACE amazing.

Ephesians 2:8 - For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God

To be honest, I'm still wrapping my head around that. Maybe I'll never get it. I always try to think and understand YAHWEH, but HAHAH it's been pretty much been unsuccessful, because I'm a finite being trying to understand something infinite.

All i know is, how ever much it won't ever make sense in my head, I long to chase after it with my heart...

Cause He has my heart. My heart is His.

Oh Please Father, let my have undying faith in you like in the past. Make me into Your likeness. Cause I'm sick of this "religion" stuff. I just want truth.

SongsforHim

Psalm 96
1 Sing to the LORD a new song;
sing to the LORD, all the earth.
2 Sing to the LORD, praise his name;
proclaim his salvation day after day.
3 Declare his glory among the nations,
his marvelous deeds among all peoples.

4 For great is the LORD and most worthy of praise;
he is to be feared above all gods.
5 For all the gods of the nations are idols,
but the LORD made the heavens.
6 Splendor and majesty are before him;
strength and glory are in his sanctuary.

So for a long time I contemplated whether to share my songs or not. "Oh, but what if people don't like it? Oh, what if I sound bad? Oh, what if I look funny?" Yup those were the thoughts that kept me from sharing my gift of music to the world.

To be honest those thoughts still run in my brain. I am human. I do fear judgment at times. But nonetheless..God is molding me into His likeness day by day. And ultimately He didn't give me musical ability to glorify myself through it, but to glorify Him.

So I do wish more than anything that these songs over the years blesses you in some way, and leads you closer to Him if you are a believer...and for those who don't know Christ I hope these songs give you a glimpse of just who my Savior is.


2008- More of You



2009- My Faithful Apology


2010- Sufficient Love (Co-Written with Melissa Lee)


2010- All We Want


Cover of Flags Brooke Fraser