Pondering...

The world is rejecting God ...No. We are.

John 3:36
Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever rejects the Son will not see life, for God's wrath remains on him."

Luke 10:16
"He who listens to you listens to me; he who rejects you rejects me; but he who rejects me rejects him who sent me."

What does this mean...

I can't seem to collect my thoughts together in one ball...but this is how I feel, we have been rejecting God, truth is we have been for a very, very long time. Yes God sent Jesus to die for us, and many of us has been saved....it just pains me to see people who continue to rebel and reject the Lord and turn to other temporary satisfactions such as money, popularity, lust, success. These things only last so long...imagine when we are old...what are the significance of these things? At school I look around, and everyone is either competing to be number one or competing to find "love"...or popularity..I don't get it. I really don't. School itself isn't even that bad, it's when I look at pictures when I come home and see what people are up to that really just shocks me that these people could possibly find joy from all this. Sure, everyone is saying "you only get to be a teenager once", or..."live life to it's fullest"...but when one truly ponders about if that was there last day to live...would they be satisfied or at peace with them selves from living in so much corruption? Everyone is always trying to find love...through relationships, in families, or even through addictions...they turn to and fro LEFT and RIGHT...but they never look up. I can truly say true happiness comes from the Lord....cause when you look towards him he'll give you even better friends than you can imagine..and just blessings upon blessings...and you can still be ever joyous and living pure at the same time. But to be brutally honest though....I mean...after all..I am a teenager...and of course I have thought of being popular or in a relationship in the past...and even sometimes in the present...but slowly but surely I'm growing away from it....as much as you might not believe me.. a guy can offer you the whole world, his love, his time, his sensitivity....but if the relationship is not God driven...it is just SO inevitable that it will fail...of course there would be evidence to contrast that statement...but why live at the risk of knowing something will fail...when it can succeed? BUT ANYWAYS. I KIND OF SPURRED AWAY FROM WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY....as I look around school and just all around the streets I can't help to realize how blessed I am and it makes me sad to know of those who cannot find love in the Lord....so I am confident that my goal this year is to bring these lost ones to Christ, especially on my campus....that's gonna take a lot fore me...but I have faith...I am too blessed to know of what God can do to people's lives and sympathize for them, to just sit around.

Know this. Yes I ponder about these things, by no means am I better in any of you, especially through my own power...if you know me..heck yes I have sooo many faults...but I really wanna change...so I hope you guys in the future will see an even better me.

Pray for me..

PEACE OUT.

Weak...

Hmm so way back when this summer, I was feeling down...about just family issues or whatnot. I realize I have low tolerance and lack of patience for people who I know sometimes...

Upon being frustrated with everything, I just decided to grab my guitar..and starting blabbing random lyrics which I tend to do most of the time...but this time I actually decided to write them down.

I tried to equivalently balance my frustration with the knowledge that God is still faithful, so this is the gist of what the song is about...

So here's some of it...still working on the arrangement and exact notes and second chorus and bridge.

Weak
2008

I'm weak in the knees, I'm weak in the heart
Sometimes I feel like everything around me so dark
Then I realize, I've just been blind
Need to open my eyes and see that everything's fine

Help me to know, help me to see, reveal yourself to me

I need you, in my life,
I know that's just an understatement
everyday it's what I'm prayin'
Help me to learn, show me the way,
to live for only you each and everyday



If you wanna hear it ask me.

This is the 5th song I have written to date.

I would like to especially thank Hadyn for inspiring me...whose Hadyn you might ask?

My guitar of course...it's like my best friend at home. :D

Thoughts...

Imperfect. Unworthy. Disgraceful. That's how I feel when it comes to God...how I yearn to seek him yet I realize how weak and might I say utterly disgusting I view myself sometimes. But God, above all these things is holy and merciful.

What happened to me....when would I start thinking about things..and writing about it. Truth is, I don't think I've done a good job about proclaiming my faith...regardless of people knowing whether I'm Christian or not..it just isn't enough.

I pray I can change, overcome pride, share with love, not care about the judgements or the bashing or the potential rejection of others....in the end why do those thoughts matter anyway...

As long as we got God, that's should be enough.

He has blessed me, far beyond anyone can imagine....and what I need to do is overcome..and be "set apart from the world"

Nicely. Put. Easier said than done.

I pray for a revival at South Pas High....and as unready or fearful I might be..I feel the need to step up on the challenge..as said by the speaker at the City to City Praise Night tonight.."There will be a revival at our school when the favor of God comes upon us."

The ultimate goal of course is portrayed in Zechariah 8:21...."

"The inhabitatants of one city will go to another saying, "Let us go at once to entreat the favor of the Lord, and to seek the Lord of Hosts;I will go also"

I need to stop claiming these things..but allow how I feel to show up not just at church, Campus Heart, CCF...but wherever I am.

Speaking of Campus Heart, I really thank you brother and sisters who've I've probably known less than a year... you guys are constant witnesses and reminders of how great He is...and man guys...God will use you if you just let it all go..for some thanks for long talks...encouragement...and things of that sort...

Sigh. Please pray for me...

and I believe this..what is said in Deutoronomy 4:29 "But from there you will seek the Lord your God, and you will find Him if you search for Him with all your heart and soul"...just gotta live it out to its fullest potential..

First, Blog.

Next a song about weakness.