thanks.

If you know me, I'm sure you've heard me stressed how blessed I feel about my life. And it's true, I sincerely oughta be one of the most thankful people in this world, and I am :D. Although my life is farrrrrr from perfect and I have many ups and downs, I still feel like I'm extreeeeeemely blessed beyond imagination.
and who do I have to thank for that? of course my God, my Savior, my Redeemer

Psalm 106:1 (NIV) "Praise the LORD.
Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever

so here are just some people I would like to thank...in no particular order

to my school friends: you guys never cease to make me smile, and whenever I need to crack a joke or amuse myself you guys are always there

Fata..thanks for always being around when I needa give you a call in desperation and listening to many of my stupid jokes I love to crack :P

Stochl: for letting me scavage through your house when I'm hungry

Harumi: for still being my friend since 6th grade..I'll never forget buddy hahah

Leslie: For being a good role model and letting me complain about how much I suck at math during end of sophomore year

Shinno: for letting me call you by your last name, and letting me bug you

Chlo Fsho': for being my choir bud and making beautiful/horrible music with our voices

Hsia: For giving me a ride to ISA where I met some coolio ppl

CCF PEEPS: Holly, Linds, Caleb, Grace, Sam
for tolerating each other and working for something WAY bigger than ourselvessssss :D

Kelly: for letting me lose your pastels LOL

to my church friends: ahhaha you guys are hilarious and will always be mah family

JESNS: for still being my sisters although we've grown so different these past years but nothing will ever change our little bond and stupid inside jokes :D

Natasha: For making scary/funny pedophile faces and turning red when you laugh and being a goood person LOL

Cece: For letting me call you loser, being obsessed with youtube ppl, playing guitar conmigo, laughing at stupid things

Saralynn: For being my jam buddy fo LIFE! and being uber talented

Moopenn: for being a cute dog and hilarious even though I just met you not long ago :P

Guys: For giving us rides..LOL and other random little things :P

King, Sharon, Anthony, Christie, Vicky: for being our coaches!

to my Campus Heart buds: you guys are amazing and really have helped me change in many aspects of my life

Barbara: Thanks for being hilarious and making funny jokes so I could laugh at you

Abe: for giving me good advice from the word and just being a good brother

James: For planning the retreat and allowing us all to become such great friends

Vasin: For coordinating things even though I know you are uber busy

Virginia: For joining campus heart and being part of dis amazing family

Daniel: For giving us rides home and being so nicee

Yena: For being funny and hilarious

Sandra: For hearing me rant about countless things, crazy youtube linking, guy talk :P, being such a mature sis in Christ

The rest of you that I met during retreat and picnic :D: I love you guys..you ppl are AMAZING <3

The tims is NOW

It's so easy to stay dormant and to be CONTENT with your walk with God but really..if your'e satisfied..then you're really not in touch with God's heart cause God's heart weights heavily on these next few days and following these elections is judgement and calamity or prosperity

can you hear that? it's God calling us to stop being apathetic and ignorant and only concerned with our own lives, because right now at this time it's a WAR for the KINGDOM OF GOD.

I urge you to pray wholeheartedly at this time in full surrender to God for his mercy

I know each and every one of us has our problems, issues, trials in our lives and also hopes and aspirations for our lives...but if we don't put God as our first priority what's the significance of all these things?

For the Lord said " Matthew 6:33
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness;
and all these things shall be added unto you."


NOW is the time.

"Jesus Christ, take my life, take all of me"- Hillsong
: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TiIx6ZN_Lkc&feature=related

Christianity...

I read this somewhere. Very profound.

When I say... "I am a Christian", I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'." I'm whispering "I was lost, now I'm found." When I Say... "I am a Christian", I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say... "I am a Christian", I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need his strength to carry on. When I say... "I am a Christian", I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess. When I say... "I am a Christian", I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it. When I say... "I am a Christian", I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches so I call upon his name. When I say... "I am a Christian", I am not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow.

Pray for South Pas High in particular, that we will be inspired to spread God's word on campus daily and that He will give us opportunities to be witnesses on campus.

Transforming...

So I haven't blogged in a while.
I've been at a loss for words to type.
This past month, I've been away at Hong Kong.
Alot of people ask me how was my trip, and all I could do was respond with an "Okay".
To be honest this past month I've dealt with a lot of doubt, a lot of fear. Fear of the world, fear of wrath.
It was a horrible feeling, and I did not enable to me to enjoy my vacation at all.
However as I came back to LA, I realized that God was trying to refine my heart..and I realized it's okay to doubt or fear sometimes..because He will use those moments to further strengthen your faith.
I realized there is so much I can worry about, but in the end God is in control..and if we could just take a step of faith and perhaps trust in Him..only then we feel a sense of relief.

And yes, doubt and fear will still lurk around from time to time, but if we are willing to submit those feelings to Him, he'll be sure to comfort you..like he said in Deuteronomy 31:8 -"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged".

I also realized something else.

We as humans, especially as Christians always struggle with ourselves, yearning to be "a better person", yet battling with our human nature. There is not much we can do though, I recently realized... except surrender ourselves completely to God, and only aim to be more like Jesus.

And so..this leads to a song to a song I wrote this morning.

I feel that I'm not the best public speaker, and my actions do not correlate to how my brain works all time, God gave each and every person a particular strength and I believe he has blessed me with the ability to be able to write lyrics and songs..and the least I could do is share it with anyone who might be interested.

God also told us to be a blessing to others,
Romans 1:11-12
I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong— that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other's faith

So I hope in some way this might be a blessing to you.

More Like You

Whom do I have, but you Lord?
You take me as I am
When the whole world seems to fail Lord
You still understand

I am imperfect, I am unworthy of your grace
I wanna be more like you Lord, teach me your ways

Help me to be, more of you and less of me
Oh, would you help me to see
I am worthless, and a fool
Help me to be lost in love with you

Yes some might choose to mock me,
Some might to choose to laugh
I hope one day they’ll understand, your holiness,
And learn to love you back

I am imperfect, I am unworthy of your grace
I wanna be more like you Lord, teach me your ways

Help me to be, more of you and less of me
Oh, would you help me to see
I am worthless, and a fool
Help me to be lost in love with you

I dunno if More Like You is the best title, so if you have any better ideas. PLEASE GIMME SOME INPUT!



and for the part that is completely IRRELEVANT to my whole blog!

I wanna give a special SHOUTOUT to SANDRA WONG, for giving her time up to talk with me online countless times..and also for curing my boredom when I was bored.

So please support her in watching this video that she made when I told her I was bored...hopefully to boost her youtube staredom in the hopes of becoming the next KevJumba or HappySlip. Haha, Just Kidding..but if you have nothing better to do...you might as well watch this video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ANS2Rg6utVw

Thanks for Reading. Sorry for my choppy writing. I decided to write choppy today.

PEACE OUT AND GOD BLESS.

Thinking..

I've been thinking a long time what to write in here...there's a lot I could say..but for now I just have to say I really need God. He's around, he's evident, he is definitely not idle to me..but I just need to trust in Him above all because he is in control..

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

*Sighs*

Pondering...

The world is rejecting God ...No. We are.

John 3:36
Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever rejects the Son will not see life, for God's wrath remains on him."

Luke 10:16
"He who listens to you listens to me; he who rejects you rejects me; but he who rejects me rejects him who sent me."

What does this mean...

I can't seem to collect my thoughts together in one ball...but this is how I feel, we have been rejecting God, truth is we have been for a very, very long time. Yes God sent Jesus to die for us, and many of us has been saved....it just pains me to see people who continue to rebel and reject the Lord and turn to other temporary satisfactions such as money, popularity, lust, success. These things only last so long...imagine when we are old...what are the significance of these things? At school I look around, and everyone is either competing to be number one or competing to find "love"...or popularity..I don't get it. I really don't. School itself isn't even that bad, it's when I look at pictures when I come home and see what people are up to that really just shocks me that these people could possibly find joy from all this. Sure, everyone is saying "you only get to be a teenager once", or..."live life to it's fullest"...but when one truly ponders about if that was there last day to live...would they be satisfied or at peace with them selves from living in so much corruption? Everyone is always trying to find love...through relationships, in families, or even through addictions...they turn to and fro LEFT and RIGHT...but they never look up. I can truly say true happiness comes from the Lord....cause when you look towards him he'll give you even better friends than you can imagine..and just blessings upon blessings...and you can still be ever joyous and living pure at the same time. But to be brutally honest though....I mean...after all..I am a teenager...and of course I have thought of being popular or in a relationship in the past...and even sometimes in the present...but slowly but surely I'm growing away from it....as much as you might not believe me.. a guy can offer you the whole world, his love, his time, his sensitivity....but if the relationship is not God driven...it is just SO inevitable that it will fail...of course there would be evidence to contrast that statement...but why live at the risk of knowing something will fail...when it can succeed? BUT ANYWAYS. I KIND OF SPURRED AWAY FROM WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY....as I look around school and just all around the streets I can't help to realize how blessed I am and it makes me sad to know of those who cannot find love in the Lord....so I am confident that my goal this year is to bring these lost ones to Christ, especially on my campus....that's gonna take a lot fore me...but I have faith...I am too blessed to know of what God can do to people's lives and sympathize for them, to just sit around.

Know this. Yes I ponder about these things, by no means am I better in any of you, especially through my own power...if you know me..heck yes I have sooo many faults...but I really wanna change...so I hope you guys in the future will see an even better me.

Pray for me..

PEACE OUT.

Weak...

Hmm so way back when this summer, I was feeling down...about just family issues or whatnot. I realize I have low tolerance and lack of patience for people who I know sometimes...

Upon being frustrated with everything, I just decided to grab my guitar..and starting blabbing random lyrics which I tend to do most of the time...but this time I actually decided to write them down.

I tried to equivalently balance my frustration with the knowledge that God is still faithful, so this is the gist of what the song is about...

So here's some of it...still working on the arrangement and exact notes and second chorus and bridge.

Weak
2008

I'm weak in the knees, I'm weak in the heart
Sometimes I feel like everything around me so dark
Then I realize, I've just been blind
Need to open my eyes and see that everything's fine

Help me to know, help me to see, reveal yourself to me

I need you, in my life,
I know that's just an understatement
everyday it's what I'm prayin'
Help me to learn, show me the way,
to live for only you each and everyday



If you wanna hear it ask me.

This is the 5th song I have written to date.

I would like to especially thank Hadyn for inspiring me...whose Hadyn you might ask?

My guitar of course...it's like my best friend at home. :D

Thoughts...

Imperfect. Unworthy. Disgraceful. That's how I feel when it comes to God...how I yearn to seek him yet I realize how weak and might I say utterly disgusting I view myself sometimes. But God, above all these things is holy and merciful.

What happened to me....when would I start thinking about things..and writing about it. Truth is, I don't think I've done a good job about proclaiming my faith...regardless of people knowing whether I'm Christian or not..it just isn't enough.

I pray I can change, overcome pride, share with love, not care about the judgements or the bashing or the potential rejection of others....in the end why do those thoughts matter anyway...

As long as we got God, that's should be enough.

He has blessed me, far beyond anyone can imagine....and what I need to do is overcome..and be "set apart from the world"

Nicely. Put. Easier said than done.

I pray for a revival at South Pas High....and as unready or fearful I might be..I feel the need to step up on the challenge..as said by the speaker at the City to City Praise Night tonight.."There will be a revival at our school when the favor of God comes upon us."

The ultimate goal of course is portrayed in Zechariah 8:21...."

"The inhabitatants of one city will go to another saying, "Let us go at once to entreat the favor of the Lord, and to seek the Lord of Hosts;I will go also"

I need to stop claiming these things..but allow how I feel to show up not just at church, Campus Heart, CCF...but wherever I am.

Speaking of Campus Heart, I really thank you brother and sisters who've I've probably known less than a year... you guys are constant witnesses and reminders of how great He is...and man guys...God will use you if you just let it all go..for some thanks for long talks...encouragement...and things of that sort...

Sigh. Please pray for me...

and I believe this..what is said in Deutoronomy 4:29 "But from there you will seek the Lord your God, and you will find Him if you search for Him with all your heart and soul"...just gotta live it out to its fullest potential..

First, Blog.

Next a song about weakness.